Diary

October 4, 2025: Decided to scrap the last diary. It's still available obviously but I think this change is for the better. I can post art and stuff on the side of this too.

I'm still trying to sort everything out here since i want it to look nice but it's kinda hard to do so when you're burnt out. I'd rather write in something that looks nice to me than in something that kinda burns my eyes if you know what I mean.

I've also decided to just update this sporatically and not think about the organization too much. It became a bit overwhelming switching out the months. Hopefully this way is better for me personally.

I'm so sorry I just really love this picture with all my heart and I wanna use it everywhere lmaoo

October 7, 2025: Currently working on redoing the drawings for the species demonstration. It's taking a bit longer due to work and the fact that im doing everything in colored pencil instead of painting them. So far, I've started on two pictures with the Vampire one being a little less than half way done. I thought it would be nicer to have the drawings be of them interacting instead of the pencil drawings that I ended up using. Once again, these will sill be on site, they'll just get moved to the art section.

Speaking of the art section....the hub area needs to get fixed too at some point. Not right now since I'm kinda sorta out of ideas but eventually the persona will be updated since I have a new one. Just general maintenance right now.

Also....I may have found some undocumented evergrace merch. I'm not joking about this either. I was scrolling through yahoo auctions for evergrace merch, as one does, when I came across what I think is evergace and kingsfield keychains. It was for $2.57, I bid for $3 and WON with a sniper bid. I think it's pretty cool that I found this by pure coincidence and I knew pretty well that no one was going to get it with how notorius evergrace's reputation still is lol.

October 9, 2025: I started writing again. I don't have a lot of motivation to make my comic currently so I'm writing it out so I have something to fall back on. It's going well so far, well to me that is. I'm a bit more willing to share my writing on here. I find them all to be cringy but who else doesn't see their high school writing to be cringe? I'm just letting myself be present with this.

October 18, 2025: I'm still writing the Camilla story. It's almost done and I'll probably add it on here today. I'm going to rename the comics section to comics and stories since it's more appropriate with how it's structured. Fixing by the waters so it looks better too is something I'll be doing too.

I'm less than half way done with the second Doyley demonstration drawing, y'know, the one with James and Irina. It wasn't too challenging to fix but the hand positions on James was a bit rough at first. I also added too much details on his sweater but that alright since I did the same thing on the Dawson and Emmanuel redraw. Just making everything prettier and hoping for the best.

Outside of drawing and working on things to improve the appearance of my site, I haven't been doing too good. I'm not going to get into it since I'm still finding a way to handle it but I've been losing sleep. I kinda crashed on Thursday when I slept for 11 hours and woke up so disoriented, I thought I was goig to be fired since I woke up close to 7 pm. Very weird day for me, even weirder weekend since I've been sleeping so much.

Also decided to pick up Forever Kingdom and attempt to beat it last night. I think I spent like.....2 hours on that game. I finally beat Darsul and Drumhort with little health (used my only revive gem and all 9 of my potions) and was shocked that the second fight against the sisters happen immediately after. I was able to attack Karmyla a bit but that was it. I was killed after a few minutes and only had about 749/4500ish health. Using the pumpkin head helped a bit but the accumulation of health is so slow, it isn't really worth it. I might try again today but I was a bit bummed out since I went through all that and still lost. My main way of widdling down Drumhort's health was by standing in a corner, letting him attack and having Faeana and Darius attack so I could use their attributes on Drumhort. On my last attempt, I decided to try and fight back with Ruyan, even though it meant using far more potions than I wanted. I wish I knew beforehand that it's back to back fighting so I could prepare myself more but that's what happens when you play a game that isn't well regarded and doesn't have good guides online lol

October 27, 2025: Crazy news: the keychains come in tomorrow. After getting stuck in customs for a week in the neighbouring state, I will finally see in person what these look like and possibly get answers about its existance lol. I never thought I would end up owning something like this but I'm incredibly excited to see these face to face :D

November 6, 2025: I'm currently making a proper reference page for prototype 1 Raymond, something 14 year old me never did. Just like the last time I drew him, I'm guessing the colors and trying to piece together what little information I remember about his lore. For anyone interested, the drawings and lore can be found in the raymond shrine, which needs to be properly linked to his section in the new art page. Still can't believe I haven't done that yet. I still tell myself occasionally that I'll finally make shrines for the rest of my characters but the amount of work I had to do to scour through old sketchbooks and figure out what era they were from was too much. Maybe I'll do it again some day but for now, that'll be something I'm not interested in.

Back to prototype 1 Raymond for a but. Like most iterations of his character, I'm 99% sure something supernatural was up with his design. When I created this version of him, I was really obsessed with hair manipulation, and since the end of his braid looks like fabric/the worlds most fucked up hand, I'm led to believe this. Again, there's such little written about this version of him that I might as well just give this to him since the next design was him being tested on in a facility. Might be that.

November 17, 2025: Minor update: I am now the proud owner of both the evergrace and forever kingdom soundtracks on vinyl. In 2018, there was a limited pressing of both soundtracks and I was able to get one for cheap. Decided to get it even though there was a chance that it could be different arrangements but it's credited entirely to Koda Hoshino so I knew it was going to be the same lol. It also has an interview with Koda too on the track list too!!! When I have the time, I'll fully write out my evergrace collection + all the merch I have found so far since I can't keep this to myself anymore lol.

November 26, 2025: Can't lie, I'm absolutely going through it. For the last 3 weeks, I've been stressed out to the point that I'm irritable and annoyed very easily. I really wish it wasn't this way but it's hard to let it go when you think you'll get fired for being trash in a different department. I got crosstrained in a new department 3 weeks ago and it's known for being the most hated and for giving out a lot of write ups. There's also 2 slightly different areas with the area dealing with heavier items being far worse. Not to get into even more details on that but I had a mental breakdown over it on Monday. Just couldn't do it no matter how much I tried.

It makes me feel even worse because I keep neglecting this site too and I don't have the energy to do anything at the moment. I'm trying to find more time to do the things I enjoy but it's a bit difficult at the moment. I'm not losing hope or giving up on the site, it's just been on the back of my mind.

In lighter news, I'm going out of state next week to see some friends. I'm very excited! I'm trying to make everyone comething out of clay so they all have something from me. It's going to be that and a drawing too for fun. Kinda finishing everything last minute but it can't be helped rn.

December 4,2025: I legitimately believe this is the worst time to be updating this site. I'm currently waiting to get on my flight and I'm more than bored because I'm standing up. I originally was sitting down but a woman kept staring at me like I did something to her...so I lost my seat. It's whatever. I'm just excited to see my friends :)